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In the modern era of the twenty-first century, the term lady is not a commonly used description of women. When I think of the term lady, my mind goes back to the old age, in which women were seen as women of power. A lady is a woman whom has high standards, confidence, and is independent. She has to have standards that surpass the average woman, in that she will not settle for less. Her standards would be one such a high scale that even those around her would want to work hard to be by her side. While a lady is seen as someone with power, she is also sophisticated and holds great beauty. She walks and speaks with confidence; almost as if she believes that she is fit to be a queen. A true lady is someone who is able to gain power with skill through her beauty and knowledge. A lady is intelligent and highly advanced with a mature aura. Those around a lady will naturally feel that she is a successful individual and not one to be trifled with. In my opinion, a lady is also an individual that does not need to depend on the strength of other in order to accomplish a goal or to take care of herself. Women of power, knowledge, skill, beauty, and dominance are the true characteristics of a lady, yet rarely are these characteristics seen in a woman. To become a lady, one must have true determination and a strong will that is not inferior to that of men.


                  What went wrong?  That’s what I ask myself, when I’m alone with my thoughts. Our relationship was going well and there was a mutual attraction. In fact, I even believed that there could be a future with him. However it all went downhill without my knowledge. I fell for him fast and hard and now I’m struggling to get back up. He seemed perfect in my eyes with his deep brown eyes and wide smile. To be honest, I think that I was won over by his smile. To say the least, I was mesmerized by a smile that was surrounded with full lips and accented by straight white teeth. I was pulled in by his booming, joyous laugh and I made it a goal to try to make him laugh. I would light up with pure joy when he spoke or was merely in my presence. Of course, I realized the hard way that I shouldn’t have listened to my heart. I should have kept it locked away in a dark abyss with no way to unlock it.  He didn’t do anything to warrant pure hate, but he brought about the jealousy and frustration in me. He loved someone else.

No chance, No hope

I’m big, I’m plump.

Not pretty enough

Too tall, Not short.

No makeup, No clothes.

No heels, No skirt.

She’s pretty,

I’m not.

I’m plain,

She’s not.

No qualities of her.

There are not enough characteristics,

For hope.

She’s light,

But I’m dark….

So, I just want to say that I’m finally free from highschool! I actually graduated yesterday and I must say that I actually don’t feel any different. I mean yeah, it’s nice to not have anymore work, but I feel as if I’m probably going to lose some good friends in the long run due to distance, etc. Graduation to me is just another step in life. You go up one step, but there are still countless others to finish. And even when you do get to that goal at the top, there are even more steps to go over. To be honest, I’m not that excited mostly because I don’t have any ambition or motivation that I look towards in the future. I feel as if I’m just drifting by; looking from the outside, rather than the inside. Hopefully I’ll be able to find that hope and drive. Wish me luck and talk to you guys later!


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